Who am I?

Who am I? Better question is … who do I think I am and am I internally consistent?

One of my supposed key features is that I strive to have a high level of internal consistency. That is, what I think, what I do, what I tell others are highly aligned. Now no one can be perfectly aligned but this is what I have openly stated to those close to me many times. It’s also an angle that I internally push myself towards.

Another related feature is I see myself at my core as an idealist. This was most obviously demonstrated during my early years at PaperG when I first became a manager. How I wanted to run things and what I wanted to do were all idealistic borderling on the extreme. I had a hard time to see other’s point of view, and that’s perhaps another one of my biases.

Over the years what I gather through reflection is a list of biases which I suffer from and I try to be at least aware of them.

I would write more, and I feel like I have much more to write but I want to keep this short for now, for after all, I want to overcome my perfectionist tendencies…

Instead I’ll embrace my tendencies to multi-task not not focus deeply. Although tbh today is one of the more focusy days for me.

I just bought the domain tbd.ong. When I was 13 my nickname for myself was TGD, it stood for The Great Dong. Then this week on a whim as I was thinking about what to call this new blog I wanted to start, I landed on TBD. It’s multi-leveled joke:

• TBD: To Be Determined
• TBD: one letter off from TGD, the bad Dong? the bold Dong?
• TBD: To Be Dong?

That is what this blog is about, as I embrace another of my tendencies… self importance and overly self reflective.

I’ll end with this - I believe the universe if ever present, observing and willing to help. I believe that by improving myself I am carring out, in a small part, the universe’s will.